These words were spoken to me on the evening of February 23, 2003. I was angry at my wife, and completely in love with another woman. No one knew about the affair but me, the other woman, and God. This message was given by a prophet named Dennis DeGrasse, and is reproduced verbatim...
Steve, I have the word of the Lord for you.
God says His call upon your life is a sure call, and it’s a true call. And God says He’s allowing you a time to adjust, a time for your family.
But God says you need to be careful and watch even your emotions and your feelings. He says you need to watch over these things because He’s got a call on your life, and because of that the enemy is going to attack you. He’s going to attack your soul, he’s going to attack your mind, he’s going to attack your emotions because he sees some of the weight and the glory that God has for you in your life. He’s going to do anything he can to cause you to stumble and fall. And God says be aware, son. Be aware because My call upon you is a sure call.
I’ve not changed My mind because of any circumstances, says the Lord. I’ve not changed My mind because of any circumstances, says the Lord. I have NOT changed My mind because of any circumstances! says the Lord.
And God says you need to go get back at it. You need to get yourself back in the harness. He says that’s where you’re the happiest, that’s where you’re fulfilled, and that’s where your sense of completeness is: not just in knowing God but in serving God, because He’s called you to it. It’s a lifetime call. It’s more than just a call, it’s your vocation. It’s more than a vocation, it’s who you are. You’re His man.
Bless you.
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When I heard these words (especially the line that was repeated three times, and by the end was practically being shouted at me) I knew what they referred to because I had already been attacked. And I knew God knew what was going on, even if the prophet didn’t know the exact meaning of the words he was speaking.
The question I have now is, “What next, God?” I’m assuming He’s still not finished with me since He went to all this trouble to get me out here in the world by myself with no earthly friend or help or anyone to talk to, or even anyone who understands me or my experiences. And I’m trusting Him to help me swallow my pride and submit to this process, whatever it is.
That’s part of the frustration. I don’t even know what He’s trying to do. I’m sure “Make Steve writhe in agony” isn’t His prime focus here, even though that’s being accomplished remarkably well.
But what am I supposed to do now? Where’s this thing headed, God? I have to have some kind of vision or purpose or reason or I don’t think I’ll make it through this time.
Where there is no vision, the people perish. - Proverbs 29:18
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Wow, I remember that word!! How that must have hit you at the time...that He had NOT changed His mind because of circumstances. It's still true you know.I cried and railed at God all the way home from my mom's today over my 'stuff'...but He is NOT a liar. He Has NOT changed His mind...read your prophecy over and over..whatever it takes...and I'll try and take my own advice.
Where are you??? How are you today????
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